First entry
This is the first entry of what I hope will be many.
Now, I use hope because my purpose for this blog is to practice the externalization of thoughts — something that I never do nor I’m good at.
What is this for
The lifecycle of my thoughts is like any other. Born out of an opinion, an idea, to conceptualize something needed at moment or in the future. This blog is not about these kind of thoughts. The ones that I never externalize are those whose criteria do not match any of the above. These do not even have a purpose to begin with.
These thoughts do not represent a need — thus they are not needed. Yet, they take form in a restless mind — sometimes even for weeks. And although I’m conscious of their lack of purpose — and my pragmatic self is aware of their uselessness — they are molded, actively even. These intrusions are sporadic, and at times they even disrupt whatever I was doing.
Until now, the lifecycle of these thoughts was incomplete. Days sculpting themselves yet these are never brought to life. They remain stuck in this liminal state, awaiting to become something before I drown them in the sea of subconsciousness. Although they resurface from time to time, slightly altered.
Now I’ve come to think that their resilience must be rewarded, or rather entertained, without trying to sound arrogant (this first entry already feels like a purple prose).
About the effort
At the same time, I wish to gain more experience in this process of birth. Even when I think these thoughts are complete, they are very far from it — this is reinforced even when I’m writing this.
Before, I described these liminal things as awaiting to become something, as if they have some eagerness to do so. In reality, they elude me when I wish to do something with them. They are shy by nature — both fleeting and errant. The only certainty I have is that they are me (or I AM them, if we agree with Descartes), even when I describe them otherwise for the purpose of explaining them.
This blog is an opportunity to nurture all these things.
Goal
My main goal is to distill these thoughts into something that can be shared. A common language, not the chaotic mess our internal minds are. This refraction needs to be done carefully.
I can’t promise this blog will have a specific theme for now. I don’t mind speaking into the void, nor I have a target audience.
That being said, here are some points I am certain I will be following
No AI
This blog will not be edited by AI in any way. Everything written here will be done by me, mistakes and all.
No coercion
I won’t be forcing myself into writing periodically.
Now, that may sound as an excuse not do to this often, but I believe this will prevent subsequent entries from decreasing in quality. Any thoughts that I write here will flourish at their own pace.
I don’t matter
My identity and who I am does not matter. I might add a dedicated page in the future to talk more about me or do mentions from time to time, but that is not the priority at the moment. I am not the purpose of this blog — the thoughts have all the spotlight.
Summary
This blog will be treated as an experiment. An effort to finish the cycle, unbind these abstractions, and a space to let them finally exist.
If by doing so I stop these thoughts from interrupting me and giving me headaches, then that’s a plus.